Dear lost Dad,
I write this letter to tell you thank you! Thank you for not being a part of my life. I want you to know that I’m not bitter about all my birthdays, and Christmases without you. I wouldn’t be the woman nor mother I am today if you had been there. I try my best at everything I do. I have learned family is the most important part of living and that’s my number one focus. I also focus on positivity and happiness. I value these traits about myself, and if you had been there, I might not have these outlooks as I do now. I have learned that life is a learning process but also, a gift. Maybe you just never learned these things? I am sorry for you. I also want you to know I am doing well and I don’t hate you. I am grateful for you, you gave me life. Without you, I might not appreciate the importance of my family and friends. I would do anything in this world for my friends and family. I give my heart to these people I’m close to. Some would say this leaves room for heartache and maybe it does, but I would rather experience heartache than not experience love at all. Although I have endured plenty of heartache, I wouldn’t change any of it, because this is also a part of what makes me, me. You made the decision to not be a part of my life, and I have made the decision to forgive you. I believe life throws us curve balls and problems every day, some enormous, and some minute, but it’s how we overcome these issues that make us who we are. I write this letter not only in hopes it reaches you, but for everyone else who has a parent that isn’t present. When I was young, I didn’t understand and felt that it was my fault. Now I understand. It was never my fault, it was always yours, and that’s okay. I am not saying I’m perfect, in fact I’m far from perfect. I make mistakes often, but I make sure I learn from mine. For all of you in the current situation, you’re not alone. Thank you, dad, for not being my dad.
Please share if you have been in this situation or know someone in this situation. You’re not alone and it’s not your fault. A lot of things go unnoticed in today’s world with so much craziness going on around us. I didn’t write this just for him or myself, but for everyone else too. There is light at the end of the tunnel and it is possible to overcome the heartache felt from an absent parent.
I know I’m not alone when it comes to experiencing a case of the WINTER BLUES
*A SNOW DAY*~~~~~~TAKE FULL ADVANTAGE
I have been a little down lately, maybe it’s the cold weather, maybe it’s because I look outside and I see dead trees, and brown grass? Maybe it’s personal issues? I know I am not perfect and neither is my family. I have always wanted the perfect little family, but does that exist? We are far from perfect, but i’m perfectly fine with that. In fact, I wouldn’t have it any other way. Being a parent is not easy. I give it my all and take it day by day. Some days are easier then others. I make mistakes, but I’m learning right along with them and it’s all just a process hoping for the best outcome. Anyways I won’t blab on, I just want you all to know you‘re not alone, and no ones perfect. I see a lot of blogs that look and seem perfect, along with their INSTAGRAM, FACEBOOK, relationships, and their family. I am here to tell you it’s not real. I promise everything I post is real life.
Although the sun wasn’t shining, today’s snow day has really cheered me up, and brought me some happiness. I just wanted to share a little sprinkle of that ……
This is an image rarely caught….. So rare that it was almost impossible to get them to smile and look at the camera at the same time.. hehe
Our puppy “Sissa” even enjoyed her say
**Quote above found on Pinterest!! Yay!
**Quote above found on Pinterest!! Yay!
We “tried” to take a family picture in front of our snowy home. I still like our photo, it was the best we could do . lol
We even enjoyed some pizza…
We tried to play twister. I thought I could play with the boys… I had no idea I would do so terrible. Note~ TWISTER is not made for adults or four year old … lol.. I guess it was ok because Fysh was doing just as bad as me…
The red lip stick also helped cheer me up ;)… I hope everyone has a great rest of the weekend. Take full advantage of another day alive, and healthy….. Sometimes it’s hard to find happiness in your days. Just know your not alone. There is a little bit of happiness in everything, you just have to look. With lots of love ❤